I think

Hello, My name is Teresa and I am an over-thinker. I over- analyze everything! I am so good at it that it keeps me from accomplishing the things that I even over-analyze. I exhaust myself with over-analyzing. I’m tired, physically, emotionally, mentally. I’m tired.

I have spent countless hours-days-months-years “thinking” about what I need to accomplish in life and work and what I haven’t accomplished in life and work (I do this one the most). Every six months I seem to add to this list of “things” to start, do, accomplish, and take on because I get bored easily. Last year, I wanted to be a runner. I spent countless $$$ on running gear, shoes, and accessories and all I ever did was run a 5K and run around my neighborhood. I haven’t ran in two months. Why? I’m exhausted. I “think” a lot about running. Now, NOW! I want to take on the grueling task of doing something that I have wanted to do since college, write. But, all I do is “think” about being a writer. I have purchased notebooks that sit empty and pens that are still in packages. Why? Because I “think” about writing. I can’t “think” about a single idea/story/anything to write about, I just know that my brain is clogged with so much life crap, work crap, running crap, writing crap, I’m in my 30’s and I should be this-that-or the other crap that I CANNOT take anymore.

I obviously have issues with anxiety that need to be addressed but therapy is something that I have never taken seriously even when I was a teenager and forced to go. I could always go for a run because the road is a great listener but, than I suffer from that other issue…procrastination/laziness.

I’m doomed.

Or, the gods are sending me a sign that this HAS to be the end. The end of the thinking/wishing/dreaming and the beginning of the DOING.

To begin, I have bought a new desk (again with the $$$$. It is from Ikea though so it was as only $$), and a planner (have I mentioned that I am an over-organizer too?) I have planned out this week already. I have life tasks dated and planned already, runs scheduled into 3 days, and if all goes well with upgrading my computer mid-week, by Friday I will have a day off from work-life stuff and hopefully will still have a computer that works so I will be able to sit down and finally put pen to paper and then fingers to keyboard.

I’d ask you to wish me luck but I am cautiously optimistic. 🙂

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I Think

Hello, My name is Teresa and I am an over-thinker. I over- analyze everything! I am so good at it that it keeps me from accomplishing the things that I even over-analyze. I exhaust myself with over-analyzing. I’m tired, physically, emotionally, mentally. I’m tired.

I have spent countless hours-days-months-years “thinking” about what I need to accomplish in life and work and what I haven’t accomplished in life and work (I do this one the most). Every six months I seem to add to this list of “things” to start, do, accomplish, and take on because I get bored easily. Last year, I wanted to be a runner. I spent countless $$$ on running gear, shoes, and accessories and all I ever did was run a 5K and run around my neighborhood. I haven’t ran in two months. Why? I’m exhausted. I “think” a lot about running. Now, NOW! I want to take on the grueling task of doing something that I have wanted to do since college, write. But, all I do is “think” about being a writer. I have purchased notebooks that sit empty and pens that are still in packages. Why? Because I “think” about writing. I can’t “think” about a single idea/story/anything to write about, I just know that my brain is clogged with so much life crap, work crap, running crap, writing crap, I’m in my 30’s and I should be this-that-or the other crap that I CANNOT take anymore.

I obviously have issues with anxiety that need to be addressed but therapy is something that I have never taken seriously even when I was a teenager and forced to go. I could always go for a run because the road is a great listener but, than I suffer from that other issue…procrastination/laziness.

I’m doomed.

Or, the gods are sending me a sign that this HAS to be the end. The end of the thinking/wishing/dreaming and the beginning of the DOING.

To begin, I have bought a new desk (again with the $$$$. It is from Ikea though so it was as only $$), and a planner (have I mentioned that I am an over-organizer too?) I have planned out this week already. I have life tasks dated and planned already, runs scheduled into 3 days, and if all goes well with upgrading my computer mid-week, by Friday I will have a day off from work-life stuff and hopefully will still have a computer that works so I will be able to sit down and finally put pen to paper and then fingers to keyboard.

I’d ask you to wish me luck but I am cautiously optimistic. 🙂

I Think

Hello, My name is Teresa and I am an over-thinker. I over- analyze everything! I am so good at it that it keeps me from accomplishing the things that I even over-analyze. I exhaust myself with over-analyzing. I’m tired, physically, emotionally, mentally. I’m tired.

I have spent countless hours-days-months-years “thinking” about what I need to accomplish in life and work and what I haven’t accomplished in life and work (I do this one the most). Every six months I seem to add to this list of “things” to start, do, accomplish, and take on because I get bored easily. Last year, I wanted to be a runner. I spent countless $$$ on running gear, shoes, and accessories and all I ever did was run a 5K and run around my neighborhood. I haven’t ran in two months. Why? I’m exhausted. I “think” a lot about running. Now, NOW! I want to take on the grueling task of doing something that I have wanted to do since college, write. But, all I do is “think” about being a writer. I have purchased notebooks that sit empty and pens that are still in packages. Why? Because I “think” about writing. I can’t “think” about a single idea/story/anything to write about, I just know that my brain is clogged with so much life crap, work crap, running crap, writing crap, I’m in my 30’s and I should be this-that-or the other crap that I CANNOT take anymore.

I obviously have issues with anxiety that need to be addressed but therapy is something that I have never taken seriously even when I was a teenager and forced to go. I could always go for a run because the road is a great listener but, than I suffer from that other issue…procrastination/laziness.

I’m doomed.

Or, the gods are sending me a sign that this HAS to be the end. The end of the thinking/wishing/dreaming and the beginning of the DOING.

To begin, I have bought a new desk (again with the $$$$. It is from Ikea though so it was as only $$), and a planner (have I mentioned that I am an over-organizer too?) I have planned out this week already. I have life tasks dated and planned already, runs scheduled into 3 days, and if all goes well with upgrading my computer mid-week, by Friday I will have a day off from work-life stuff and hopefully will still have a computer that works so I will be able to sit down and finally put pen to paper and then fingers to keyboard.

I’d ask you to wish me luck but I am cautiously optimistic. 🙂

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